Apologies if this seems like a long random rant, although that could be because it is. I've just had the crappiest day, and once again, Bo has gone out and left me to sort out how I'm feeling on my own. My little Tiny-Ham died today. We took him to the vets Wednesday as he had a problem with his cheek, and we were told it was a small lump which could easily be removed, so I took him in this morning. 20 minutes after I left him there, I got a phone call from the vet - it was too bad to do anything about, and it would be better to put him to sleep. So I've spent all day pottering around the house, unable to concentrate on anything, and then Bo comes home, after picking Tiny up so we could bury him, and he pretty much ignores me. Doesn't even ask how I am, just witters on about the new radiators, and where to put the boiler. For the first time in a very long time, I ate dinner by myself. I just didn't see the point in sitting to eat a meal in silence with him. After we buried Tiny, we're both pretty upset, but he gets ready and tells me he's going out, and can't understand why I'm so upset with him. I wouldn't be so bad, if he had just given me a huge hug when he got home and asked if I was OK, but apparently, its just his way of dealing with things. Fine.

I can't see things lasting much longer if things stay like this, we barely see each other anyway, I get home from work/gym and he goes out, and if we are home together, we don't do anything - he watches TV while I'm upstairs by myself.

Sorry if this has sounded very ranty, but I'm just so fed up and upset right now.

Our fridge broke! Of all things to break down, it had to be our fridge! So, for the last week, we've been storing most things in the porch! Luckily, the freezer is separate, so we don't have that to worry about, but still! We went to buy a new one today - turned out to be a very expensive shopping trip! We were just going to get a normal fridge-freezer, just bigger than we have, and we were wandering around, and I was looking longingly at the big American-style ones (aren't they just amazing?) but I figured they'd be a bit too expensive, and a bit too big for our kitchen, until Bo says that when he gets the heating sorted, he's gonna get rid of the big cupboard to extend the kitchen. So, a few discussions later, and we decide on an American-style fridge-freezer!!! We just have to make do with having a bit of a squished kitchen for a couple months until we both get time off work to do the heating, knock down the cupboard, and redecorate the kitchen!!! So, slightly more expensive than we were thinking, but I'd rather get it all sorted now, before any little sproglets appear! Next, I'm saving for a new cooker (ours is ick!) and a new bed!

Wow. I can't really remember writing the last post, but I guess I did! So, hospital stuff is almost out the way, after the HSG thing, and I've joined a gym! I know, something I swore I would never do because I hated gyms. But, it was something I had to do - I cant go out for long bike rides like I used to, because the weather is so rubbish, and I probably wouldn't make it very far! I am enjoying it (at the moment) so I hope it pays off!

I bought a new lens for my 450D the other week, a fantastic 60mm Macro! I love it! I'm sort of running out of things to photograph though, the hammies aren't very happy about having a camera shoved in their faces all the time! Neither is Bo, come to think of it!

Thats just a couple I've taken lately, its taken me ages to upload them so I won't put too many on just yet!

Weirdness.

So I had my hospital appointment today. I wasn't looking forward to it, I figured I'd get there and they'd tell me I needed to lose weight and come back when I had. Okay, maybe not that harsh, but you get the picture. I was pleasantly surprised, the consultant was really nice, went through a few things, and I have to go for a HSG, where they'll inject dye and Xray me just to check all my tubes are clear, then go back in 3 months.

In other news, I almost had a tooth taken out, but I didnt (long story) and I'm working crazy long hours! I keep meaning to add photos, I just forget!!!

Late Night Conversations

I love late night conversations, y'know, the ones with people you barely speak to day-to-day, yet late night, online just surfing around, and you start talking about the most bizarre topics, or even stuff from long ago, that you never think about normally, but it seems perfectly ok to talk about at 1am!! I've just been talking to a good friend, who I've not spoken to in a long time, and its been really good to talk about stuff that really we should have sorted it long ago - now maybe it won't be quite as awkward when we bump into each other in Tesco...

I'm going to Weymouth tomorrow, to pick up a camera bag (I already have one, but it'll be nice to have a smaller one without all the extra kit...) and then hopefully get some cute photos of me and Bo by the beach... I may practice my portrait shots! Photos coming soon!

Resolutions....

So, new year, new resolutions! This year, I'm going to do my best to craft more, read more, have more me-time, lose some weight... Who am I kidding??? This is pointless, I never keep resolutions!!! I do want to start eating healthier though, and join a gym - my hospital appointment is a months time, and I'm dreading it! I know what they'll say, but it still makes me nervous!

The only thing I really want to do this year, which is kinda related to the healthy eating thing, is starting a family. Blimey, that sounds really weird! Not weird as such, but I'm not used to saying it out loud, mostly because its not really something you just randomly mention in conversations y'know? A few people know, but I really don't want to make a huge thing of it, and I don't want lots of "Are you pregnant yet?" That'll just drive me nuts! Bo seems a lot more OK with it than what he was, we talk about it a lot more, whereas before, he was like "Yea, ok..." to anything I'd say! I'm part scared but part excited, and I'm not even pregnant yet!!! I worry about whether it's the right decision, and whether we'll be good parents, but mostly I worry about it actually even happening! Its crazy, its not like its taking over my whole mind, but when I get 5 minutes to myself, its all I can think about! I just wish I knew somebody that knows exactly what I'm talking about!!!

Anywho, I'm gonna leave it for today, I promise to blog more - I'm just so rubbish!

Blimey!

I can't believe it has been this long since I last posted anything!!! I am so rubbish! Well, not much has happened to be honest, I have got my lovely new camera (I'm still really excited! Its my new toy!!!) and I treated myself to a little zoom lens, so when I get a chance, I will post some of my photos!

I'm now back working full-time - more cash for stash and other goodies... And some xmas presents I guess, I'm so disorganized, I have no idea what to get people, more specifically, Bo! He's one of the hardest people to buy for - he doesn't ever want anything because he buys it all for himself! Nightmare!!!

Ok, I'll post some photos next time, and I promise I won't leave it so long!!!